Bullet with butterfly wings

bullet with butterfly wings
billy corgan
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the world is a vampire, sent to drain
secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
and what do i get, for my pain
betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
now i'm naked, nothing but an animal
but can you fake it, for just one more show
and what do you want, i want to change
and what have you got
when you feel the same
even though i know-i suppose i'll show
all my cool and cold-like old job
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
tell me i'm the only one
tell me there's no other one
jesus was an only son
tell me i'm the chosen one
jesus was an only son for you
despite all my rage i am still just a rat in a cage
and i still believe that i cannot be saved

...said sadly
james iha
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(JI=James Iha, NG=Nina Gordon (of Veruca Salt), B=ambos)

you should know that i love you we should love like lovers do and i can't help but fall for you ah honey, i'm just a fool now you know darling, i'll never be true you see, for so long i was blue (i'm not the lonely one) and if i hurt, then you will, too ah honey, i always lose now you know lover, when will you? i'm so afraid that no one cares lover, can't find you i swear to god, don't leave me here now you know oh you know that it can't be when no one else here really means (anything to me) if you hurt inside if you confide in me again since you ran away hold me now tell me how love is ours lover, when will you? i'm so afraid that no one cares lover, can't find you and no one knows what brings us here lover hold me now tell me how love is ours

you're all i've got tonight
[the cars]
ric ocasek

i don't care if you hurt me some more
i don't care if you even the score
well you can knock me, i don't care
and you can mock me, i don't care
and you can lock me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight
i don't care if you use me again
i don't care if you abuse me again
and you can make me, i don't care
and you can fake me, i don't care
and you can love me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight
i don't wanna feel sorry for you
you don't have to make believe it's you too
well you can pump me, i don't care
and you can bump me, i don't care
and you can love me just about anywhere
it's alright 'cause you're all i've got tonight
i need you tonight

clones (we're all)
[alice cooper]
david carron

i'm a clone, i know i'm fine
i'm one and more are on the way
i'm two, doctor
three's on the line
he'll take incubation another day

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all

we destroyed the government
we're destroying time
no more problems on the way

i'm through doctor
we don't need your kind
the other ones
ugly ones
stupid boys
wrong ones

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all

six is having problems
adjusting to his clone status
got to put him on a shelf
all day long we hear him crying so loud
i just wanna be myself, be myself

i'm a clone, i know i'm fine
i'm one and more are on the way
i'm two, doctor
three's on the line
he'll take incubation another day

i'm all alone, so are we all
we destroyed the government
we're destroyed time
no more problems on the way

i'm through doctor
we don't need your kind
the other ones
ugly ones
stupid boys
wrong ones

i'm all alone, so are we all
we're all clones
all are one and one are all
i'm all alone, so are we all

a night like this
[the cure]
robert smith

say goodbye on a night like this
if it's the last thing we ever do
you never looked as lost as this
sometimes it doesn't even look like you
it goes dark
it goes darker still
please stay
but i watch you like i'm made of stone
as you walk away

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
a witch hunt for another girl
for always and ever is always for you
your trust
the most gorgeously stupid thing i ever cut in the world
so say hello on a day like today
say it every time you move
the way that you look at me now
makes me wish i was you
it goes deep
it goes deeper still
this touch
and the smile and the shake of your head

i'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
can't stand here like this anymore
for always and ever is always for you
i want it to be perfect
like before
oh, i want to change it all
oh, i want to change

destination unknown
[missing persons]

life is so strange
when you don't know
how can you tell
where you're going to
you can't be sure
of any situation
something could change
and then you won't know
(you ask yourself)
where do we go from here?
it seems so all too near
just as far beyond as i can see
i still don't know what this all means to me
i have nowhere to go
i don't know what to do
and i don't even know the time of day
i guess it doesn't matter anyway
life is so strange
destination unknown
when you don't know your destination
something could change, it's unknown
and then you won't know
destination unknown
(and then i ask myself)
when will my time come?
has it all been said and done?
i know i'll leave when it's my time to go
???? what i know
life is so strange
destination unknown
when you don't know your destination
something could change, it's unknown
and then you won't know
destination unknown
life is so strange, life is so strange

dreaming
[blondie]
deborah harry / chris stein

when i met you in the restaurant you could tell i was no debutante
you asked me what's my pleasure, a movie or a measure
i'll have a cup of tea and tell you of my dreaming
dreaming is free
i don't want to live on charity
pleasure's real, or is it fantasy?
reel to reel is living rarity
people stop and stare at me
we just walk on by
we just keep on dreaming
feet feet, walking a two mile
meet meet, meet me at the turnstile
i never met him, i'll never forget him
dream dream, even for a little while
dream dream, filling up an idle hour
fade away, radiate
i sit by and watch the river flow
i sit by and watch the traffic go
imagine something of your very own,
something you can have and hold
i'd build a road in gold just to have some dreaming
dreaming is free

---

1979

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1979
billy corgan
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

shakedown 1979, cool kids never have the time
on a live wire right up off the street
you and i should meet
junebug skipping like a stone
with the headlights pointed at the dawn
we were sure we'd never see an end to it all
and i don't even care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in the store
morphine city slippin dues down to see
that we don't even care as restless as we are
we feel the pull in the land of a thousand guilts
and poured cement, lamented and assured
to the lights and towns below
faster than the speed of sound
faster than we thought we'd go, beneath the sound of hope
justine never knew the rules,
hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
no apologies ever need be made, i know you better than you fake it
to see that we don't care to shake these zipper blues
and we don't know just where our bones will rest
to dust i guess
forgotten and absorbed into the earth below
the street heats the urgency of sound
as you can see there's no one around

ugly
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
it's not me
so beautiful and free
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
i was born so beautiful
but now i'm ugly

and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
i know there's nothing i can say
to change
the judgment in their ways
i'll never be what you need
can't help at all
my love was so beautiful
but now i'm ugly
yeah...

i'm good enough, but i don't care
i'm good enough, but i'm not there
i'm good enough, but i don't care
the sun is out, but i'm not there

(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough, but i don't care (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) the sun is out, but i'm not there (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)
(i can go anywhere) i'm good enough (...somewhere)

i don't look in the mirror
i don't like what i see staring back at me
everything is clearer
i'll never see what you see
and i rot in my skin
as a piece of me dies everyday
i know i'm nothing
because i'm ugly

believe
james iha
© 1996 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

close your eyes
until the sunlight dies
in your head a thousand stars
through the darkness you can see love light
and if they steal your light
your heart is still in mine

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

of someday...

there's a life i hide
but i try to disguise
and i could take you a million miles away

i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you, dear

on sunday i made amends
of all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you

and i...
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth is no other
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, a lover
i want to believe in you and i heard you
your song, you sing, a truth, is no other
i want to believe in you, dear
of someday...

on sunday i make amends
for all my mistakes
may godspeed be with you

cherry
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

(listen-wanna just start it?...ready, flood?
yeah...1, 2, 3, 4)

stay with me, i'll set you free
'cause i can tell you once were pretty
rose so sad you've lost your petals
and lost the luster of your tattle tales

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

what are we waiting for?
what are we waiting for?
time has lost its hold on me

hatred sleeps inside my bones
in the stillness of cool air
all the boys have been left for dead
'cause we know where they fear to tread
the beautiful ones, the ones we'll remember
the precious ones, our greatest pretenders

i need a love to help me find my way
i need a strength that i cannot betray
i need a word to say what i can't say
i need a lover, lover
i need a lover, lover

and if you lose yourself
could you take me, too?
could you rest inside the sleep?

stay with me, i'll set you free from you

the boy
james iha
© 1996 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time i heard you breathe
i sighed
ooh, and every time i saw you bleed
i cried
love is like a song
and if you sing
if you ever need me
i'll be there, and i-

i can't stop, can't breathe, can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again

ooh, and every time that i'm with you
i'm alive
ooh, and every time i think of you
there's a light
and i felt it, too

and my heart is a spring
is a well, if you need
if you drink it for you
then i'm leavin'
every little part of me is a part of you

i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
i can't stop, i can't breathe, i can't think
i'm in love again
i don't need, i don't eat, i don't sleep
i'm in love again
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love
the boy, the boy's in love

set the ray to jerry
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

born to please, every simple need
i stand alone, and my thoughts indeed hate you
for ever making me
i'm in you, i'll be anything

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

come to me, let me hold you still
i'm so tired, just as tired as you
take me for anyone but me
all that you feel is never true

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never let you go, no, no
i'll never let you know

let roar these feelings
to the whore of my tears
pure as a light, poured into your eyes
suck you like the sap from a tree
honey from the dew, from the bumblebees, yeah yeah

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

when you say that you are
forever my star
i'll never let you go, no, no
i'll never let you know

and i want you
and i need you
and all you are is brand new
and i need you

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Zero

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zero
billy corgan
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

my reflection, dirty mirror
there's no connection to myself
i'm your lover, i'm your zero
i'm the face in your dreams of glass
so save your prayers
for when you're really gonna need 'em
throw out your cares and fly
wanna go for a ride?

she's the one for me
she's all i really need
cause she's the one for me
emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
and cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
intoxicated with the madness, i'm in love with my sadness
bulls*** fakers, enchanted kingdoms
the fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
i never let on, that i was on a sinking ship
i never let on that i was down
you blame yourself, for what you can't ignore
you blame yourself for wanting more
she's the one for me
she's all i really need
she's the one for me
she's my one and only

God
billy corgan
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

god knows i'm helpless to speak on my own behalf
god is as helpless as me caught in the negatives
we all just do as we please false transmissions
i hope god forgives me for my transgressions

it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to f***ing bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless

god know i'm restless and weak and full of piss and vinegar
god knows we sow what we reap in the dirt of grandeur
when the darkness comes to me and fixes its gaze on me
god knows I'm helpless

it's what you want to know no consequences
it's what you need to f***ing bleed
it's all too much god knows i'm helpless

you break you're back for what you can't have
you can't turn back
god knows I'm helpless

mouths of babes
billy corgan
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

so here we are true superstars we're so real from afar and now
now you're with us now

and the mouths of babes sing revolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing

the "dream" was a sham for saving what you can't and now
they're me but i'm not them i am you and you are me
it's in the ways i walk thru fire
it's in the ways of my desire
and when i said that you're no good
what i meant was i wish i could
be there forever be young forever i wish you could be there
so now i bid farewell beyond the bounds of hell
and now you'll swear you knew us well
well you can never tell

and the mouths of babes sing revolution
and the mouths of babes scream disillusion
you can't break what's already broken
cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing

tribute to johnny
james iha/billy corgan
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music/cellophane star music (bmi)

{Instrumental}

marquis in spades
billy corgan
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

and i'd love you to notice i'm devoted
to destroy for no one
now it's that time again to take revenge
on all the debutantes and their friends
the bitter charlemanges so self absorbed
the bodily remains such a bore
was i good enough to break you
and all i see is empty
cause now i'm one of them so adored
the slink of impotence that money can afford
we know who you are and where you live
is your innocence all that you can give
was i good enough to break you
in the back of the car the angel dust was given back to the stars
and in this fall from grace
we'll meet again another time another place i've been down deep in you and me
let's see where we can go
angels, barbed wire f*** you, desire

pennies
billy corgan
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs/cinderful music (bmi)

and i stumbled onto you as you stumbled over me
and you say the fates were cruel for throwing us together
i always loved you so especially when you'd go
all the world must know that i loved you so
it's a pity we're apart it's a shame you broke my heart
but i've got a new girlfriend she looks alot like you dear
no one could ever do dear all the world must know
that i loved you so especially when you'd go
especially when you'd go away and leave me here
go away and leave me alone all the world must know
pennies for sale

pastichio medley
copyright control
© 1996 virgin records america, inc. published by chrysalis songs (bmi)

{Instrumental}

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tonight, tonight

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tonight, tonight
billy corgan
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

time is never time at all
you can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
and our lives are forever changed
we will never be the same
the more you change the less you feel
believe, believe in me, believe
that life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same, we're different tonight
tonight, so bright
tonight
and you know you're never sure
but you're sure you could be right
if you held yourself up to the light
and the embers never fade in your city by the lake
the place where you were born
believe, believe in me, believe
in the resolute urgency of now
and if you believe there's not a chance tonight
tonight, so bright tonight
we'll crucify the insincere tonight
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
we'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
the indescribable moments of your life tonight
the impossible is possible tonight
believe in me as i believe in you, tonight

meladori magpie
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

And on her doorstep
I saw that I was blind
I'd forsaken
What was mine

What had mattered
Mattered little now
We had shattered
Apart somehow

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to my name

Time to get up
And take the long walk home
For the first time
I go alone

Do you remember
when we first met?
Chasing down the alleyways
behind my dad's

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too

Ooh
I can't help but stay the same
Ooh
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too

rotten apples
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow
I must surely go
For my love calls me below to drag her
from the depths of my soul

When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened claws of death
The empty breath desire

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach
I drive the dirt up her garden

Sorrow
She'll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Just letter yellowed distant scorn

Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust, we're wired into sadness

jupiter's lament
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Gone, long gone
We can all be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind

And although my secret's gone I'll try to carry on
If I must, I'll get along without you

Gone, long gone
Leave this world all wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale beyond the dawn
Free these mortal bonds
No one knows I can't be wrong
So I'll sing the same old songs
I try to be strong for you

Why have you left me
Amongst the tall trees
I know I gave her all I have

And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons and bows

And I'm gone
Oh yes, I'm gone
And I'm lost without you
I'm lost within you
And I'm gone, so gone, long gone

medellia of the grey skies
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

You're an empty promise
You're an easy chair
You're the gods forces
Struck down somewhere

You're a secret noticed
You're a mystery sky
You're a wish floating
Up to the night

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I write
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I could
I'd throw away this world
I'd dress you all in pearls
I'd give you what you wanted

You're all I notice
In a crowded room
Your vacant motives
Unmoved, revealed

Medellia of my eyes
You're the emptiness of I
You're the reason that I drive
And if you say you will
I would love you still

And if I just could
Be anything for you
Just anyone at all
Anything that mattered, washed out

You're the silly reasons
In a goldfish laugh
You're the ageless seasons
At rest, at last

blank
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I'd write a letter to you
And there'd be nothing to it
I wouldn't hem and haw
On just how to start it

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank

I wish I'd stand up straight
I wish I'd said things different
I wish I'd said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray my soul to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank

tonite reprise
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

and the embers never fade in my city by the lake
the place where i was born
as the wind-up toys wore down
muffling the sound of a life hidden underground
believe, believe in me, believe
that you can change, that you're not stuck in vain
we're not the same we're different tonite
we'll crucify the insincere tonite
we'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonite
the impossible is possible tonite
believe in me like i believe in you tonite

---

thirty three

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thirty-three
billy corgan
© 1995 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

speak to me in a language i can hear humour me before i have to go
deep in thought i forgive everyone
as the cluttered streets greet me once again
i know i can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
tomorrow's just an excuse away
so I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
the earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
at the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
steeple guide me to my heart and home
the sun is out and up and down again
i know i'll make it, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you
and for a moment i lose myself
wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
i've journeyed here and there and back again
but in the same old haunts i still find my friends
mysteries not ready to reveal
sympathies i'm ready to return
i'll make the effort, love can last forever
graceful swans of never topple to the earth
tomorrow's just an excuse
and you can make it last, forever you
you can make it last, forever you

transformer
  billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

[hit it]
a livewire moves slow
a transformer always knows
the score is four
leaves you hanging on the floor
for more and less and more of the blame
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to witness
to lay down and bear true
a cherry onion firefly
tastes sweet and white
as you are blue
knows just what she wants to do
with you below the silver skies
don't hate her because she's undecided
and she's tired
and she's sick of the same old s***
it's just more of the same old same
i know she wants more and more and more to stomach
in honor of her youth
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy
she's not sorry she's happy
sorry she's happy as a turtle
she's a real live transformer

the aeroplane flies high (turns left, looks right)
  billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I really don't wanna look stupid when I'm sleeping
I never really liked sunny days
The black wings just reach out to me over a distance...
And I can feel the wind from the wings
I see the clouds, I feel the ocean with my feet, and I'm home again
It requires an ability to judge distance
The airplane flies high...turns left, looks right

love is a sentimental heart
life is a sentimental way
spy the fragile heart so cursed
as he walks across this earth
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile

If I knew where I was going I would already be there
(Laugh) I wish I had more time
Judicious, beautiful, uh, demented, whatever
I've always been afraid to die, but I think I'm more afraid to live

and all i gave to you is lost
and all you took from me is lost
black wings carry me so high
up to meet you in the sky
i'm disconnected by your smile
disconnect a million miles
and what you promised me
i hope will set you free
i'm disconnected by your smile
wishing you were real to me
wishing i could make believe
i'll take my secrets to the grave
safely held beneath the waves
always knew i couldn't save
always knew i couldn't save you

[8:02] And in the heart I know you're there
And in my heart I know you care
And in my heart I know you don't

the last song
billy corgan
© 1996 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

this is the last song
this is the last song i'll sing for you
this is the last song
this is the last song i can give you
the roaring city sleeps
metal fingers clutching dirty sheets
and no one comes for free
in this place where the angels sleep
this is the last song
my eyes are open wonder to this
as you hold the secrets
i count the minutes off so perfectly
the shards of broken glass
sing the strains of a sad old tune
we've made it at last
but what we had is lost inside our past
this is the last song
could you find away across me
to forgive and forget me
to appease and relent me
to deceive and detect me
to understand and release me
to the dawn
this is the last song

the bells
james iha
© 1996 cellophane star music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound
and i'm in love
the joy of love
the coming of
jesus
jesus
did you call my name
never ever felt afraid
did you hold onto
did you make it thru
you
there's so much doubt in every heart
for all our faults we carry on
jesus
jesus i ran away
i got so scared
i made mistakes
will i hold onto
will i make it thru
ooh the bells are ringing out
what a sound

my blue heaven
george whiting/roger donaldson

day is ending
words are wending
back to the show ?
each little nestling love
night sheds falling
love words calling
what makes the world go 'round
nothing my love when whippoorwills call
the evening is nigh
i hum it to my blue heaven
i turn to the right
? the light
? to my blue heaven
you'll see a smiling face,
a fireplace,
a cozy room
a little nest
that's nestled where the roses bloom
just molly and me
and baby makes three
we're happy in my blue heaven