twilight fades
through blistered avalon
the sky's cruel torch
on arching autobahn
into the uncertain divine
we scream into the last divine

you make me real
you make me real
strong as i feel
you make me real

sheila rides on crashing nightingale
intake eyes leave passing vapor trails
with blushing brilliance alive
because it's time to arrive

you make me real
you make me real
strong as i feel
you make me real

lately I just can't seem to believe
discard my friends to change the scenery
it meant the wrold to hold a bruising faith
but now it's just a matter of grace

a summer storm graces all of me
highway warm sing silent poetry
I could bring you the light
and take you home into the night

you make me real
lately I just can't seem to believe
you make me real
discard my friends to change the scenery
strong as i feel
it meant the world to hold a bruising faith
you make me real
but now it's just a matter of grace

ava adore
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

it's you that I adore
you'll always be my whore
you'll be the mother to my child
and a child to my heart
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
without you there aren't reasons left to find

and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
you'll be a lover in my bed
and a gun to my head
we must never be apart
we must never be apart

in you I see dirty
in you I count stars
in you I feel so pretty
in you I taste god
in you I feel so hungry
in you I crash cars
we must never be apart

drinking mercury
to the mystery of all that you should ever seek to find
lovely girl you're the murder in my world
dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
in time
we must never be apar

tand you'll always be my whore
cause you're the one that i adore
and I'll pull your crooked teeth
you'll be perfect just like me
in you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
in you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
we must never be apart

perfect
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

I know we're just like old friends
we just can't pretend
that lovers make amends
we are reasons so unreal
we can't help but feel that something has been lost

but please you know you're just like me
next time I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect
perfect strangers down the line
lovers out of time
memories unwind

so far I still know who you are
but now I wonder who I was...

angel, you know it's not the end
we'll always be good friends
the letters have been sent on

so please, you always were so free
you'll see, I promise we'll be
perfect
perfect strangers when we meet
strangers on the street
lovers while we meet

perfect
you know this has to be
we always we're so free
we promised that we'd be
perfect

daphne descends
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

with the sugar sickness
you spy the kidnap kid
who kids you to oblivion
it's the perfect hassle
for the perfumed kiss
he makes you miss him more than home

you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist
you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else

past sidewalk ashes a last lovers arc
you come apart to intertwine
it was all so simple
as you watched him move
across the darkness in your room

you love him
you love him for youself
you love him and no one, no one else

and the winding vines
the pretty boys dive
and thru the pinhole stars
into the shadow mind
you will lose him then
on some gentle dawn
this boy is here and gone

you love him
you love him for yourself
you love him and no one, no one else
you love him
you love him more than this
you love him and you cannot, you can't resist

you love him...

once upon a time
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go

Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes

Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?

Tuesdays come and gone
restless i still drive
try to leave it all behind

fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' over me

Once upon a time in my life...
I went falling...

Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold

tear
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

the lights came on fast
lost in motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
but you knew all along
you laugh the light
I sing the songs
to watch you numb

I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't lose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can do?

where is your heart? where is your heart gone to?
tear me apart
tear me apart from you
you laugh the light I cry the wound
in gray afternoons

I saw you there
you were on your way
you held the rain
and for the first time
heaven seemed insane
cause heaven is to blame
for taking you away

the lights came to pass
dead opera motorcrash
gone in a flash unreal
in nitrous overcast

do you know the way that I can?
do you know the way that I can't choose?
do you know the things that I can?
do you know the things that I can't lose?

tear me apart
tear me apart from you
where is your heart?
where has your heart run to?

crestfallen
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

who am I to need you when I'm down
where are you when I need you around
your life is not your own

and all I ask you
is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance, once again

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

and you may go, but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own

who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I to you?
along the way
I lost my faith

and as you were, you'll be again
to mold like clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I?

appels + oranjes
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wind refused to blow?
what if the seas refused to wave?
what if the world refused to turn?
what if the stars would hesitate?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

what if the silence let you dream?
what if the air could let you breathe?
what if the words would bring you here?
what if this sound could bring you peace?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
digging for the feel of something new
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?

it came from your thoughts, your dreams and visions
ripped up from your weeks and indecisions

what if the sun refused to shine?
what if the clouds refused to rain?
what if the wrold refused to turn?
what if the clocks would hesitate?

what if, what is isn't true?
what are you going to do?
what if, what is isn't you?
does that mean you've got to lose?
digging for the feel of something new

does that mean you've got to choose?
the feel of something new
does that mean you've got to lose?
the thoughts you cannot lose
what are you gonna do?

pug
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

kiss and kill me sweetly
come and drive me home
drag the miles in me
I am yours alone

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

desire me so deeply
drain and kick me hard
whisper secrets for me
try to go too far

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into...

please don't change
please don't change at all
bring your rain
bring your rain to fall

inside where it's warm
wrap myself in you
outside where I'm torn
fight myself in two
in two
into you

come and kiss me sweetly
ride the telephone
drag the miles to me
I am yours alone
yours alone
on the telephone
yours alone
looking for a kiss kiss
yours alone

the tale of dusty and pistol pete
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

dusty screams, through doors and imaginary floors
"why can't you miss me?"
pistol pete removes the final breaths from her unkind and she is shaken
what does this mean in love or in peace?
with you lying next to me
so faithless serene
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

alone he roams inside the ordinary catacombs of her waiting
with raven hands she steals and staggers towards her man
still scorned by his demon

because he's undone
become the language of
disaster and love, vengeance and dust
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

dusty screams, through doors and imaginary scenes
of hurt and teardrop
as he holds her down, in the cold lonely winds
together again, her inside him
and she calls to him

let the waste cross the ancient trails to you
far out beneath the sorrow clouds
let them taste the bitter lost mistake of you
let them cry out through your rusted scars

annie-dog
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face
her velvet spleen her shackle spine
her diamond curse
it comes with mine

a vessel she
for violent I
confession arms a wake
mine, mine you were always mine
possessed by my taste

and below the angel dog
combs her hair and sings her psalms
the bombs go off
she doesn't notice
it all goes wrong
she sets things tragic
she is venus
she is mars
she's electric
and the struggle of

upon my face we leave no trace
but in her stomach mercury aged

she holds the blood
she carves the knives
she digs the wives in our babies

amphetamine annie-dog
pulls her trash
and her stories
from place to place
and bed to bed
gives of herself and the magnet head

another floor another ceiling
counting stairs with double meanings

is it wrong to be swallowed whole
to disappear in her
to give her the priceless peace
of giving up control

we tumble out into the streets
and annie-dog she drags her leash
pretty face
ugly mouth
bitter bred and so released

and by the no
and by the yes
annie goes if you couldn't guess

a simple man
a sycophant
her elephant with the laughing call
she wants clean sheets
and fresh flowers
and dental shots
and the hong kong glue

amphetamine annie-dog
has her leash and a face

shame
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna see this through
don't let them get to you

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is drunk and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is drunk all the time

shame

you're gonna walk on home
you're gonna walk alone
you're gonna walk so far
you're gonna wonder who you are

shame

love is good and love is kind
love is good and love is blind
love is good and love is mine
love is good all the time

hello goodbye, you know you made us cry...

behold! the night mare
billy corgan & james iha
© 1998 chrysalis songs/cellophane star music (bmi)

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
appease you
the wind blows and I know

I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep, you'll find me
the coarse tide reflects sky

and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalm
and the night mare rides on
what i fear is lost here
the wind blows and I know

all you have to do is run away
and steal yourself from me
become a mystery to gaze into
you're so cruel in all you do
but still I believe, I believe in you

so may you come with your own knives
you'll never take me alive
with all the force of what is true
is there nothing I can do?

I can't go on, digging roses from you grave
to linger on, beyond the beyond
where the willows weep
and whirlpools sleep, you'll find me

and the night mare rides on, and the night mare rides on
with a december black psalma
nd the night mare rides on

I've faced the fathoms in your deep
withstood the suitors quiet siege
pulled down the heavens just to please you
to hold the flower I can't keep

for martha
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

whenever I run
whenever I run to you lost one
it's never done
just hanging on

just past has let me be
returning as if dream
shattered as belief

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
someday I'll follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

your picture out of time
left aching in my mind
shadows kept alive

if you have to go don't say goodbye
if you have to go don't you cry
if you have to go I will get by
I will follow you and see you on the other side

but for the grace of love
I'd will the meaning of
heaven from above

long horses we are born
creatures more than torn
mourning our way home

blank page
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

blank page is all the rage
never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
stop sign told me stay at home
told me you were not alone
blank page was all the rage
never meant to hurt anyone
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
you haven't changed
you're still the same
may you rise as you fall
you were easy you are forgotten
you are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall
through the leaking roof
that you had left behind
you remind me
of that leak in my soul
the rain falls
my friends call
leaking rain on the phone

take a day palnt some trees
may they shade you from me
may your children play beneath

blank page was all the rage

never meant to say anything
in bed I was half dead
tired of dreaming of rest
got dressed drove the state line
looking for you at the five and dime
but there I was picking pieces up
you are a ghost
of my indecision
no more little girl

17
billy corgan
© 1998 cinderful music/chrysalis songs (bmi)

17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to remember love is the energy
behind witch all is created
17 seconds to remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17 seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all that you need